| It has been 4 months already since last entry
when it comes to year-end, I got to make a review, jus a random thought indeed
I really got a free & joyful ride in 2009, I did fulfil what I wish-- going to Italy, a place I never dreamt that I'd go to. You know, to read, to plan, to worry for a European trip is really enjoyable . I've once a Japan-Freak, but now, haha~ European is my favourite, undoubtedly!!
In Italy, I realised what is 'life', a real life you know, not a Hong-Kong-style, hustling around and strive for so much money, but you got no mood & no appetite to enjoy those beautiful things, what a waste!!! Life is sooooooo easy, jus a coffee, a book, some music, and better with a 'BELLO' passer-by :p
Being an Asian, I'm really astonished by every piece of artwork, or various kind of European-style architeture, in which those dwellers would probably fed it up. A very easy snap shot could make a post-card-alike feature, that it could hardly happen in a metropolisis, like HK.
Now mind still staying at Venice and Florence, how wonderful if i could go visit again in my honeymood~ thou I wish it would be Akita in the very beginning, but I assumed it wouldn't be true, so...gotta change
Another milestone in 2009 was parting with him. A brandnew start for us, I mean we do separately, haha. Once again, ain't regret for this, as I really needed a way out or an alternate at that severe times, that I called it Dark Age. I was so tense and never know how to make us easier to get the way through, at least, at that time, both of us cannot make it, and not mature enough to make it! Being parted is beneficial to both sides anyway.
It's never a easy to task to face him every weekend, paradoxically, i need to. From the beginning, same fellowship, next one is choir, the final one and most excited one: in same group of fellowship!!!!!!!! what's wrong??? is the training necessarily to be THAT TOUGH?! ok, HO, NGO SUEN!!! I really dunno what I have to do with this. Just let it go and let it be. I may know why things go like this at the day I'm in heaven. Definitely Maybe. |
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| 感覺像從頭來一次
不過這次真實了很多 雖然要沉殿都不易
還是要謝謝你呢
無論如何
我要重頭開始了
放輕一點 然後再輕一點 直至忘了自己要怎樣放輕
有很多事情還需要學習
讓自己變得更好 讓身邊的人(朋友、家人、情人)更舒服
以後的事 就順其自然
希望大家都找到自己的幸福吧!!
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| 很開心
經過今天 發現.....
我真真正正的可以放鬆、從容的面對
不用刻意調節自己 想笑便笑 抓狂便抓狂
不用為自己籌算、爭取甚麼
簡簡單單 真的好舒服!
很明白 自己有很多地方要進步呢
要成為好的器皿 還需要很大的努力和堅持
加油加油!
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| 好幸福
上星期日，上完教會，頭痛痛，就回了家
順道買個mos burger給嫲嫲見識見識
覺得 她的腳令她不方便去看這個世界
那我把外面的世界帶給她吧
就這樣兩嫲孫就在家裡嘆著午餐
邊吃邊講
簡簡單單的 好幸福
怎麼我總想不到 可以跟她如此這般的日子剩下那麼少呢
我總是在自己的世界忙這忙哪
日子一天一天過
轉眼間 她已不可以如昔日揹著我到處走 替我挽書包趕校車的一個女強人
轉眼間 她的牙齒乏力 腳步蹣跚
偶爾我會想 我會捨得她離我而去嗎
教會有年長的弟兄因病辭世
嫲嫲也感到惋惜
我趁機問:「你知他死後靈魂會去那裡嗎?」
老人家有時雖然決了志 但記憶力不好 跟他們refresh是必須的
但嫲嫲眼仔一碌 「你當我傻架? 上天堂lor」
我再有追加問題 「咁天父如果問你點解要比你入天堂，咁你點答呀? (哈哈..三福問題)」
她想了一想 很理所當然的答「因為我係佢個女lor」
哈哈哈 與model answer雖然有點不同 幾經引導才可答到
不過 她那一下真的好可愛 我想 天父都應該收貨吧 (哈哈...真的不知道)
聽罷她這樣的答案、這樣的信心
我想我會捨得的 |
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| 是日為生日前夕
想一想 這樣過了廿x年
讀書的時候還期待著快點脫離考試做功課的生活
然後 到今天 不需要煩讀書考試的事情了
但惱人的事比讀書時的複雜數倍
縱然如此 都是值得感恩的
上帝對我的恩惠 真的是夠多了
起碼我現在都算健健康康..有穩定的工作
雖然我的工作有很多令人氣憤的地方
但是它能給予我的自由度也有很多 也有很多好同事
而人工.......以我的productivity 我覺得自己是賺了
真的很好
我以前總在想 要在30歲以前結婚 自己還計好一切schedule
現在 距離這個時間其實只有很少日子
坦白說 真的沒有信心呢
不是說 不結婚不行
只是有一點點遺憾而已
我其實都知道上帝為我預備的必然最好 最適合我
現在的我正在不斷操練信心...求神讓我知道甚麼是該做的事
我想要的東西其實真的有很多 不過正如今天李太的見證所說
「我們有沒有問神想怎樣呢」
她把事情小至窗簾布都交在神的手中
我真的要好好學習 先求上帝的國和祂的義
然後 把自我中心慢慢放下......
真的很難 不過都要做!!!
要先做上帝覺得對的事情....!!
加油加油
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